I feel a bit sick.

My sponsor came over, we talked to my sister. Sister started to try to argue. It didn't happen. Sponsor left, and sister comes home soon, I'm frightened of what will happen.
But if sister gets out of control I will leave.
I'm afraid she'll be pissy. I have no control over that. But I can control , hopefully, my reaction. I'm totally unprepared to move, nothing is ready. Not even me. Because the way I move, I just throw stuff in boxes. When it's time.
I need to just sit here and wait for her to come home. I feel sick about it.
I'll be paying her for August. Three hundred bucks I really need to save, but having her not whine about it is worth it I guess.
She took the entire week off sick... probably thinking that since she was getting my rent it was ok. But really... I'm barely making eight hundred a month. Why is she taking three hundred for rent plus eating off my food stamps... I wish she would be more supportive and not bring up the past so much, but.. I did a lot of damage, no one to blame but myself.
I just want it over with.
Looks like I'm getting up to my brother's on Sunday to pick apples with him and hopefully get the truck and talk him into bringing the bed to my new place. I have no bed there now... otherwise I'd probably be sleeping in it right now.
I'm sick with worry about tonight, but here's hoping all will go calmly although I am not counting on it.