Dissapointment

My roommates were up this morning, getting coffee... I walked through the kitchen then out to the carport and one of them followed me out to ask me if I wanted to go walking when I got home from work.
I got home and was all excited about going for a walk through the neighborhood with my roommates.
I asked the same roommate "So, going walking?" And she looked pretty disgusted that she had even mentioned it and said "I'll have to ask J. " and nothing more was said so I came down to my room and tried to figure out how best to reply next time they ask.
I don't have very much to get excited about these days, and lord knows a walk with my roomies was sounding pretty good.
They keep talking about doing this and that and I keep asking when we're gonna but it keeps getting put off... L. and J. are tight, and I don't think they realize it but they are joined at the hip and leaving no room for anyone else, I mean Ed obviously but Ed's gone most of the time.
Was going to go to the meeting but thought about my motives. I just wanted to ask Claudia out for coffee. I need to rethink that whole thing. Leave it be for a few days.
Work was boring, hard, hot, and draining. I went to let my sister's dogs out to pee on my way home. *shrug*
Now I'm waiting for it to be tomorrow so we can get that over with and then get Saturday over with so I can have Sunday to do... what?
Holy shit, I have got to find someone to connect with around here. It's killing me. I'm about to run off to San Fran...
OH!
I got an e-mail from Carter. good old Carter... I've thought of him often over the years . He found me via Facebook.
Get this: he lives in New Orleans! I am so planning a road trip in my head.
I wonder if he was in New Orleans when I was hanging out there in '04... how funny would that be.
Carter and I used to hang out some in Richmond (VA); I can't remember WHAT we were doing (we did work together at some point) but I do remember how funny he was, and that he was dating a severe older man, a German named Heinrich;
A chef.
Carter was one funny guy and I know we got along pretty well, I can still see his face and he's gotten even handsomer these days.
I e-mailed him and mentioned the possibility of a road trip... that would be pretty cool, IF he's not a big drunk and IF he's not a druggie.
I can't wait to hear back from him , wondering if he went through Katrina....
*sigh*
what the fuck am I going to do here all winter? stalk cute babes at AA meetings? straight ones?
jesus. I gotta get out of here
On a lighter note, I took photos of Steve's van today and put an ad on Craigslist for him. He just called to say thank you... he's gotten five calls already.