First day

Ok, 2009, you seem to be an okay guy. I like you so far.
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Today I have done everything very deliberately. I want to be more deliberate in the future. Not entirely un-spontaneous but... I'd like to get up earlier, meditate, think things through more in my daily routine.
So... I realized that drinking two cups of coffee in quick succession makes me manic. It's a no - brainer but it takes what it takes to make us learn our little lessons in life.
I was speaking to the Craigslist gal today and shared with her how I had finally, with B., learned that great lesson about not getting involved with the wrong person, not ignoring the red flags, not being a doormat for someone just because they 'turn us on'.
I refuse to let that happen again, if I can see it, and if I stay close to my friends and sponsor I will either see it or be shown it.
Craigslist gal (I'll refer to her as CL) seems very cool. *shrug* at least she doesn't make me want to pull the imaginary phone line out of the wall. (It's been so long since I had a land line, it would at this point be a novel item in the household). Everything old becomes new again...
Anyhow, she is making noise about having coffee soon. I pray she is not attractive to me in any way so I don't have to pretend I'm not turned on.
lol! we are such animals.
Do as I say, not as I do!
I should ask her some questions, in a fake survey, just to see her reaction.
Give her that look that shrinks give you when asking those all-important questions that determine if you are a sociopath or not.
"What do you think of sans-serif ?"
"How often do you shop at Walmart?"
"Name three popular NASCAR drivers."
In a perfect world the answers would be "I hate it", "Twice a year or less", and "Um..what's that guys name...well I have seen the number 88 on cars, what's that guy...Earnhart, maybe?"
But chiggers can't be boozers... I'm just glad 1) she's not much of a drinker 2) she's not racist and 3) she likes to take walks.
OK, so Mr. new year 2009, I'm pinning hopes on you to bring me a new friend to hang out with that doesn't make me grit my teeth.
Like I love going to the movies with G... but... the other day she asked me to carry her pop corn to the seats, and when we sat down she didn't take the popcorn from me immediately, she dawdled getting comfy and then laughed at something on screen expecting me to laugh along, but I was too focused on not spilling the popcorn all over my seat/lap etc... and waiting for her to take it.
yeah, I'm uptight like that... I notice shit.
it's just that it's not a far cry from 'carry my popcorn, willya?' to "Watch my kid for an hour, ok?"
I'm hip to those games and watching out for number one.
CL likes to talk about her son, he sounds great. I hope she likes to talk about other stuff too. We'll find out more.