lost

Feeling a bit lost. I had a dental appointment this Thursday and now I find out my insurance won't start until the twenty third or so...they got my routing number wrong somehow and my initial payment didn't go through.
I'm so scared because all of a sudden my teeth have been hurting bad. I know something very wrong is happening and I want to get it looked at and now I have to wait another couple of weeks. It's starting to really bug me...I'll be at work and one of my teeth will just randomly pain me. Damnit...of all the damn shit I deal with, I went and got my own insurance, and they got the routing number wrong, so fucking A, I have to wait another couple of weeks not knowing how much more worse my teeth will get in that time.
I hate this.
I didn't take the seafood job. I didn't call them either. I simply don't give a shit. I decided it felt all wrong. Totally wrong. They wanted me to start work without giving a two week's notice. And when I said there was no way, I couldn't do that to my boss...they asked me to work nights in addition to my day job. And I would have had to buy shoes,pants and a special hat. AND they couldn't guarantee enough hours. I decided the whole thing seemed great at first but when they asked me if I spoke any spanish I should have known right then.
They must be cutting some serious corners in the payroll department and I think my hours would have been in jeopardy from the get-go. At any rate, I didn't think it over while I was in the interview. I need time for these things. I had to process the icky feeling I got from them: they are under pressure to cut corners and I could tell that by the look she gave me when I asked if it was full time.
Naw, I need forty hours, folks. Thanks again, but... next?
I am feeling so sad. I have to go give a check to my new roommate, change is scary; it's getting closer and closer... my new place. I hope again that I am not jumping into the fire out of the frying pan.
Please? let it be an ok place to live ... I have to ask her what if anything she is doing about getting the internet set up upstairs.
I'm going to drop by her work (pizza joint) so that will be interesting.
She' being totally cool about the money... says I don't have to pay it all at once. I'll give her 2/3 of it today.
I wish I could take this cat with me, man this cat is beautiful. I wish that mouse (the roommate) had not fed it to begin with, now it wants to come inside.
I wish I didn't have to go drive over to the pizza place in the rain and dark: hate driving in the rainy dark around here. I get lost so easy...
I need GPS...
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So, I went out there to get my taxes done. And it was pleasant. My tax guy is so nice. And it turns out I get back eight hundred and some odd dollars. I was so afraid ...of the trip, of what I might have to pay, and it turns out it was easy to find, and I got money back, and everything is cool beans.
I met up with my future roommate and gave her five hundred dollars towards rent and my deposit. I'm feeling better since I got some things taken care of ... and the twitter chat was fun. Those are some nice women from all over the globe.
*sigh* just so sad tonight. so very sad.