And to think I had actual hope

Meh. One guy says he's going to send me a plumber to fix everything and the other guy says he is going to come by and fix my wireless internet. The wireless internet guy is 'sick'. I have a little bit of faith in him, I believe he'll come by at some point, but not so sure about the plumber guy. I haven't heard a peep from him all week. I hate that I feel the need to check and see what he's doing, and if he's coming at all, since it was a supposed 'gift' from a friend, this plumbing.
It concretes my desire to not accept help from people I do not know that well or trust to keep their word.
If at the end of next week I have not heard from the plumber I'll be calling a plumber myself out of the bloody phone book.
Internet guy is a friend of my sister's and using her car. He's using her car for free. You would think that since she's allowing him to use a free car he'd actually do a favor and get over here in a timely manner. I dunno. It's just me, but I would sure do it. Like when my brother calls me, I'm up there in a flash. No joke, I'm up there so fast...
Because he's allowing me to use a car.
I saw MILK last night. I'm feeling so outrageously sad about missing CASTRO. Nothing feels right when I'm not in San Fran, I mean nothing feels a hundred percent, it never has. I wonder if I'll feel ok in Portland or if I'll never be completely at home anywhere but in the lower HAIGHT.
:::My '8' key has been sticking. I wonder what the bloody fucking hell??? I barely use that key. I wonder how that happened. UGH.
L, at the AA meeting, chided me for not going to meetings every night. I can't imagine going every single night. He said to me "Did you DRINK every day?" The man is ... well he's in way more need of it than I am. I think that 3 meetings a week is plenty for me. Despite my little outburst above about Castro, I'm pretty damn happy and I'm in a great place and I see my sponsor every week, call or e-mail her every day. L, and B for that matter, LIVE the program. L in fact goes three times a day. I can't imagine that. I'd go insane. B has this big book all bookmarked, dog eared, indexed... I love these people, I do, but I can't live the program like it was a religion. I have to have a balance of real life and AA...