As Surreal as it GETS

So... went from just working my ass off six days a week and coming home too tired to think much less do much of anything to working my ass off five days a week and going to school three days a week and talking to my ex most nights into the night and having lots of cool stuff planned for the fall; my life has finally arrived and it only took a year and a half of not drinking.
D. has been calling quite a bit. I'm not used to talking on the phone so much, it's disconcerting. Not that it is necessarily a bad thing. And she's so very helpful. But I have never talked this much on the phone to someone who was not 1) my lover or 2) Carol.
I have been trying without success to fix my computer problems but have given up. I did defrag and all that, its' running fine, just a couple of worrisome issues, I'm sure my meddling will cause a crash sometime soon. I wonder if maybe I shouldn't order a new laptop just in case. I hate to dip into my Pell before I get it though: but my computer is worrying me.
I thought about getting a MINI... I don't know. IT's just a thought. Something to keep me connected to the internet while my main laptop was in the shop. and where would I take the laptop if it did crash? Geek Squad?
I dont know.
At any rate, I have one paragraph to double space and then I'm caught up on homework. Not too bad. I did read four chapters yesterday... cleaned the house today...when not talking to D.
I. sent a photo of her on the CN tower...and J. drinking a beer on what looked like Queen street in Toronto. Oh how I miss Toronto.
I got an invite to the NOAH awards; I wonder if J & I will go, I am dubious about going. Despite being nominated for an award; it's probably going to be a boring night. Food sounds good but ...it's going to be a buffet on sterno..who really needs that.
So it's very surreal to be suddenly thrust into what for intents and purposes seems to be a relationship with one's first girlfriend, whom I have not seen for over twenty years. She really seems to have a good heart, and we have a lot in common... for instance, we both listen to NPR & classical music exclusively when in our cars. She drives a Cavalier, I'll be driving a Cavalier. She likes sculpture & welding...so do I. She likes pottery and wants to take a class from Kim..so do I.
She likes punk rock, rugby, English...opera. She has a horse. And most perfectly she has no money and is just now thinking about getting a steady job... sometime soon. We are a great match in my mind: both of us starting from ground zero due to a troubled past.
I have to bite my tongue when I want to ask her "What are you wearing" ... fear of rejection. I have no idea if we'll fall back into romance the way we fell back into friendship.
Not that we ever did have a friendship: i was a huge mess. she reminds me of what a mess I was... every now and then. She will say something about the past that makes me shiver, I was such a huge dork, totally insecure. And quite shy.