Church.

Today my brother called me and I went up to see him... when I got there he was still in his sleeping shorts and looking like he just woke up, I guess he called me then went back to sleep, the bastard.
I sat down and watched annoying previews of upcoming Showtime shows (I don't know how to change the channel , he's got satellite and Tivo and Bose surround sound, three remotes to control all that shit)... guh.
He takes a shower and then starts vacuuming. So I do his dishes (which entails washing about forty zip-lock bags, he reuses, which is great but he saves them all up and how do you find enough things to hang them on to dry? It's annoying).
Then he asks me to run to Lowe's for him to get some bug spray for his yard fogger. I have to drive all the way back into town. It's about twelve miles.
I get back, he's still vacuuming. We eventually get outside, and saw off two tree limbs . One nearly falls on both of us. It's hot and he's impatient and making me nervous, my knee gives out and I yell and he yells at me and it's so annoying.
But we get the job done and go inside and he sits down and I have to leave so I do.
When I get home it's time to shower and get ready to go to church with my roommates... which I do, because I've been wanting to go and a picnic is a good time to go.
And of course B. is there.
And we hug and talk. And I find it hard to talk because all I can think of is "I want to look into those eyes for an entire night"... and she's making small talk and I'm doing my best not to seem like a complete retard.
We talked a long time and she and I went inside together and got a drink of soda then her partner showed up and we were done talking, eh.
They sat across from us at a seperate table and I could see her and she could see me and I just had to bite my tongue and make myself not look over at her all the time...it's a mess.
Told my roommates about my crush on the way back and they said they couldn't tell by looking at me interacting with her so.... that's good.
I don't think about her for a while then I see her and boom! It's back. Because she's so intense; that white-blond hair and those eyes and that smile make me crazy. And she kind of limps and that's hot.
She's nine years my senior, and that's hot too. I love the laugh lines around her eyes and ... guh, I hate it when I see her and we talk and get along so well and when we hang out for a few minues it just seems like it should go on.
The people at that church are just like the ones in Anchorage. I'm sure I'd find a place there but it's a Jesus based church and how will I get around that? I suppose it wouldn't hurt to go along with it.
Who needs to know I believe in a Higher Power but not Jesus as my savior?
I'd just have to dodge the question I guess.
You have to go through some kind of church 101 to join, I don't want to join I just want to meet new friends that are gay.
I hope I hear about that job soon.
I'm so lonely.
My roommates want to go hiking .. that's sounding good. The weather should start getting cooler soon....
it will be nice to hike with good people and not have to worry about BEARS and MOOSE... just snakes. What a relief to worry about snakes after worrying about being EATEN ALIVE by a damn grizzly.
Effin' bears... effing moose... damn things eat and stomp you . Sick of worrying about them , yay for Alabama not having Grizzlys and Moose.