UGH!

I feel like total crap! what IS this shit? Is it bronchitis? What is going on ?
I dont want to go to the doctor. I really don't.
Tomorrow I want to get my hair cut. And get some trumpet sheet music and a pitch pipe for the violin.
Maybe I'll just get my hair cut tomorrow and get the other stuff Tuesday.
I've been having these dreams where I have a lover and all I want to do is lay my head on her chest and hug her and adore her.
Each night it's a different woman. The odd thing is none of them are attractive to me, like, it's not someone I would choose to look at for gratification. But in the dreams she is everything to me and I'm in total love.
The universe is telling me that the woman I'm supposed to find is not necessarily going to be someone I would normally find attractive, physically. I have to keep an open mind there. The dreams always surprise me because I will be laying all over her, hugging and loving her, touching her, adoring her, then I see her face and am surprised each time.
This morning it was a rangy woman with long dark hair and wearing makeup, not my type at all.
But she was directing me in helping her re-organize her refridgerator and I was loving it.
*sigh*
Mom woke me up from that dream, she called me to tell me she was nearly out of ink and asked me if I would e-mail Joanne, my sister in California, and ask her if she would send some ink.
I got up, turned on the laptop, and emailed Joanne then went back to bed.
But the dream wouldn't come back.
I'm glad I'm getting some closeness from someone even if it is only a dream.