Ok, this is stupid

I'm feeling just so down.
it comes and goes.
Seriously: something has got to give.
I have got to do something.
Go to the clinic, get some counseling, take some anti-depressants in hopes it makes me have quiet, sweet dreams and undisturbed sleep?
Exercise might be good. More bike. Probably need to do that.
Food... more water, less fat. I should definitely acknowledge that exercize and diet play a role in a person's well being, mental and physical.
I can't change the fact I don't have any friends here... although Gayl from T.H. said she might like to go to lunch tomorrow.
They are going to do 'Miracle Worker ' soon. Perhaps I can volunteer. That is something to look forward to, isn't it?
gotta stop feeling sorry for myself. I brought it on myself. I need to remember this loneliness and despair next time I hunger for alcoholic beverages. THIs is where it gets me... alone, lonely, broke. Remember that, kiddo, or it will get even worse.
yes it could be worse. If I drank, I would lose the truck. I would lose my job. I'd be sleeping on my sister's couch again, and my liver would no doubt give up this time.
And my teeth would probably start giving up too.
So... I should be glad i have what I have and I need to keep working towards being a better person, more happy too.
Asked mom to send me my art kit and my portfolio. I would like to hang some of my work around here, to get inspired.
and if I had my pencils from art school I think I would feel inspired. My old art supplies... speak volumes of what might have been and still can be.
We'll see what happens.