Dinner with C 4.0

So I finished my second semester of school. 4.0's all the way. I bought the solutions for my computer programming class, because although I understood totally what he was talking about in class, and it all made sense when reading about it in the book, when the final came I was so lost it was NOT funny at all. It was like reading latin. So I bought the solution off the internet and I have NOT ONE qualm about it because I am going to change directions again. I think that changing directions is OK as long as I do not stop at the traffic signal and stare too long. I have to keep forward motion. I don't care what I am taking in school as long as I am in school. But it doesn't look like my future holds any kind of computer programming or logic or anything like that. I do NOT like it. And I am hating math and I don't see myself struggling through another two years of it.
So I got my car at last. It's been so nice driving it around. So nice I decided to drive it all the way to Louisville. Next weekend I'm headed up there. I asked my other 'mom' if I could bring my laundry up and she said yup.
C said dinner sounded great and I have been able to think of little else.
I think my sponsor is mad at me for not making it to the meeting Thursday but I lost track of time trying to get my car to start, I had messed up the fuses when trying to install my CB radio and it was halfway into the meeting start time when I got it started. I really should wear a watch or carry my cell phone with me when out in the yard. Anyhow, she hasn't returned my text or e-mail for two days so I hope she is ok. That's not like her.
I am having late lunch with my friend M. tomorrow, that's something to look forward to. Mexican food! wee!
Work is horrid as always but I feel needed there, as my buddy Steve is struggling hard core with his problems with drinking/drugging. HE fell of the wagon spectacularly and tried to flip his van but didn't, and now is evading a warrant for his arrest that they told him was out there. I don't know how my boss got Steve out of handcuffs but he did. I'm glad it's not me running from the law.
I'm just trying to keep the noises in my head down about C. I dare to hope that she is not just being nice and really wants to see me. She was very warm towards me the last time I was up and I want it to continue but she is a very busy person and who knows what will happen but I want to spend all weekend with her, unrealistically. I want to go on a moonlit walk and talk my heart out but I know that is simply not going to happen. I want to touch her, to rub her shoulders and smell her hair but also, not happening.
So I will sit there and watch her eat and we'll talk and I'll come home and mope.
But I love my car and soon I start summer school and two of those classes are downtown. I should get a bike for that, I should. A five hour class downtown on Saturdays that starts at 9 am. What was I THINKING?
I want to transfer to UAH in the FALL> don't know if any of my classes will transfer and don't care. Going to go anyway if I can swing it. Student loans be damned. I don't care as long as I am in school and learning something and maybe if I get the loans and the Pell I can live off the pell, and only have to work a couple days a week. Then I will have time to actually study harder, and not be a zombie when I come home.