Character Defects

topic tonight: being willing to have (god) HP. remove all our character defects.
 Well... some of us like to hang on to our old character defects, because that is where we are most comfortable. All day long I bitch and gripe about my coworkers, my roommates, my family. Everyone I meet who annoys me, I bitch about all day long.  and so does everyone else at work, except my boss.
 who only bitches a few times a day.
Anyhow... 'the grouch and the brainstorm are not for us'. I'd like to be that better person, with the patience and kindness, tolerance, love ... I'd rather be a help than a hindrance to my coworkers. As it is, they avoid me when I'm in a foul mood. I'd like them to be able to ask what's wrong and me not say something foul.
 Am I ready to let go of those character defects and be happy? I'd like to think so. I keep asking the universe to allow me to step out of its way and for me to become a better person, one who can be happy, a part of...
 So, here's hoping I can let go. I don't like being who I am at work. I'd like to get another job but first I must master this one. It may look like a simple dishwashing job on the surface but in reality it's a huge test for me to see if i can get along with my coworkers and have a glowing reccomendation when I leave.
 I'm tired of being a grouch.
George, I have found out, is in detox. I intend to go see him tomorrow if I can find the place and tell him I don't want him to end up with his name on one of those BLACK coffee mugs that hang on the wall ... the ones that belong to the deceased members.
 Damn him, he thinks no one cares.